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Revealed on March 4th, 2008 @ 9:25 pm New Account [ ] ATTENTION! I made a new journal. Add me: latest_epiphany. I'll probably delete this one in a few days. 2 Comments | Comment?

Revealed on February 14th, 2008 @ 4:01 pm [ ] [copied&pasted from my private blogspot] I am undefined in every aspect. You can choose how you like to see me, or how you want to refer to me, or how you want to define me in order to understand who I am and why I do the things I do. But I will keep surprising you. I will not act by that definition. I know I'm surprised when somebody acts a way that doesn't fit the idea of that person I had in mind. So I try, I try not to define people. I try to keep in mind that every one of us is in fact the same person, set apart by different experiences throughout life. It does bother me when someone insists on acting out the person he has set out for himself, and consequently lies to himself to stay in character. I can't see how you can be happy when you live the dreams of a fictional personality. Things might not go the way you planned them to, but they will be the right thing for you if you just follow your nose and heart instead of blindly following directions. 3 Comments | Comment?

Revealed on February 13th, 2008 @ 3:05 pm [ ] I am so tired. I went to bed at 8pm yesterday because I was utterly exhausted. I suppose I'm not used to school anymore after only one week off. I need more sleep, and more time. This morning I had PE and now I'm tired again. PE was kind of fun, though I hate it most of the time. Being active isn't my thing, and certainly not in a group that big. Yeah, I don't like big groups, unless I'm fond of everyone within. Which I'm not. Check out this Belgian band: Exit On The Left Yesterday, we had to write a short poem in class for creative writing. It had to be about valentine's day. Mine was so short;I wanted to write more, but I had run out of time. I wrote one about my er.. little infatuations with certain band members etc. The poem kind of sucked.(keep in mind that English isn't my first language) Let me tell you about my love, alleged sincere A stranger familiar to the eye and ear. You're out of reach, we've never met I'm holding on to the idea of you I've set. I press play and am glued to the screen; this is the most of you I have ever seen. So, yeah. P.S. look for hidden confessions in this entry (: 26 Comments | Comment?

Revealed on February 10th, 2008 @ 4:13 pm [ ] I forgot half of my school books at home, hence why I'm on online in stead of doing my homework. I guess I'll do it tonight when I get home. The dream had was bizarre. It was a combination of sweaty PE, pop quizzes about the amount of water North-America contains (wth?), greasy hair, a guy that annoyed my guts out, and all eyes on me. I was glad to wake up. My MCR poster still hasn't arrived. It was supposed to be here before February, 5th :/ Anyway, here is a picture of The Horrors. because they're awesome. And British. (Which is often the same thing.) p.s. from now on I'll be adding hidden confessions to my lj post. I don't even know why. I guess this is my idea of fun. Look for them. There's one in this entry. 25 Comments | Comment?

Revealed on February 4th, 2008 @ 1:55 pm [ ] Time goes way too slow. And at times, I don't want it to pass. These days are bliss, still, something is missing. I want March, 7th. I want April, 9th. I want to lose myself in the sweaty mass at gigs. I want to be able to spend time with Inge and Nina without it being a computer screen I'm staring at. ~+~ I bought Life On The Murder Scene. Seriously, this shit is love and tears <3 This shit is also the equivalent of hot sweaty sex. I'm buying an iPod so I can watch it everywhere. Now all I'm craving for is to be at an MCR gig. 25 Comments | Comment?

Revealed on January 12th, 2008 @ 2:47 pm [ ] [ mood | cheerful ] I just ordered my ticket to go see Panic(!) At The Disco in Tilburg. And I'm overly excited. <3 Yesterday felt good. I don't know why. It was a day like any other day. But everyone seemed extra nice. And I felt at ease. And we laughed when my friend Melissa and I had no idea where our classmates had gone, and we had to find the right classroom, and arrived late. It's these ordinary days that I live for. "Did you write that?" "Yes." "Can I read it?" "Er. No." "You don't trust me?" "I don't trust what I write." 33 Comments | Comment?

Revealed on December 31st, 2007 @ 8:00 pm [ ] Happy new year! Whenever that is in your timezone. I'm eating sushi. Tell me what you are doing/did/are going to do on New Year's Eve. I'm making digital confetti: *: ~ . ~ :°*.~ .:~. * . ~ . ° : . ~ . ° : ~~ . . ~ : . ~ * : . ° ~ : . . : ~ * ° ~. : ~. ° ~~ : : . ° . . ° ~ * : . * .:~. * . ~ . ° : . ~ . ° : ~~ . . ~ : . ~ * : . ° ~ : . . : ~ * ° ~. : *: ~ . ~ :°*.~ . . ° ~ * : . * .:~. * . ~ . ° : . ~ . ° : ~~ . . ~: . ° : . ~ * : . ° ~ : . ~. ° ~~ : : . ° *: ~ . ~ :°*.~ 8 Comments | Comment?

Revealed on December 15th, 2007 @ 9:55 pm [ ] Fuck it. Hearing news about Panic!'s next album makes me extremely excited. I'm, like, tearing up? Seriously. I get like that. I'm so excited. And also so pathetic. =] They've been giving hints on their official site, e.g. in the page's source. Because they're cool like that. The album is almost finished, the first video clip is going to be recorded. And I'm just so happy. ~+~ Today, the milk carton fell out of the fridge. It tumbled from the top compartment, to the next on, onto the next one, before crashing onto the floor. I had so many chances to stop it, but I just stood there and watched. And that stupid event felt like a revelation to me. Comment?

Revealed on December 15th, 2007 @ 5:36 pm [ ] So, while I really needed to study, I spent all day wasting my time on xkcd.com and it was so worth it. and now my head and eyes hurt. and I'm going off the internet now; eat, and then study Dutch. 15 Comments | Comment?

Revealed on December 13th, 2007 @ 4:21 pm [ ] I don't know what it is, but I'm always so frigging cold. I'm trembling because of the cold right now, while I'm in a cozy hoodie, inside the house. Guh. Panic!'s sophomore album is to be released on March 25the, which is awesome, because it's two days before my birthday. I hope they don't postpone it once again -.- Although, I don't seem to mind the long wait all that much. I know enough artists to keep me busy, and I still listen a lot to their debut album, and I'm not even a bit tired of it. i've never been able to listen as much to a band as I do with Panic! At The Disco. I will be extremely excited when the next album comes out, but I can wait. I'm craving for something historical. A book. A movie. Something. &I absolutely love clothes from somewhere along the 18th century. Now back to me studying French. good day. 5 Comments | Comment?

Revealed on December 12th, 2007 @ 8:45 pm [ ] I decided to delete every entry (what, like four?) up 'till now and start fresh. I've never really been active on here. And I'm about to change that. You know how the bottle says "wash and repeat"? Yeah. I don't do that. So. What's up with me? I'm in the middle of my exams. And I'm really not motivated to study. I don't know what has gotten into me this school year. I used to be real studious. I still am, just not for the things they force on us in school. All I wanna do all day is sit in front of my laptop and read, write, listen music, talk to people,... That's all I feel like doing lately. I feel like I don't have enough time for it, yet I spend all my time on it. Anyway, Christmas. Let's talk about Christmas. I'm in love with MCR's cover of All I Want For Christmas atm. I bought a South Park Calender for my sister. One thing I know I'm getting is the book Wicked Gentlemen by Ginn Hale. Argh, I can't wait to start reading it! I've read so many good reviews about it and it sounds just perfect. love&skittles -R 3 Comments | Comment?

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